I'm bleeding.

And not just a little brown spotting, either. Red. And enough to drip into the toilet.

When I called the emergency OB nurse, she asked me how much I was bleeding. "Was the spot the size of a quarter?" Uh, no . . . "Twice that size?" Try closer to the size of a dollar bill.

She said at this point there's no way to determine the cause of the bleeding. It could be an irritated cervix, or there may be some bleeding behind the placenta. I wish Jacob was able to listen more closely to the other end of the phone, because I wasn't exactly processing everything she said.

I'm also wondering if maybe it could be my body getting rid of Baby B. And I was also diagnosed with a subchorionic hematoma at my last ultrasound, so maybe that's the reason. Again, I wish Jacob had been with me at the RE because I don't remember if she said to expect bleeding in the next few weeks or not.

I'm hoping against hope that Baby A is okay. If I lose that baby, too, I'll be devastated. I have an appointment on Wednesday, but the nurse said to call Monday morning and try to schedule an appointment for that day if possible. I only need to go to the hospital if the bleeding gets out of control.

Thankfully, I'm not having any cramping so far. But I'm worried. Some Google searching turned up with an equal number of reassuring and discouraging stories.

Please be okay, baby.